Life makes just about that much sense.
These last couple of months have been interesting! I feel as though I've fallen into a trap of apologetic blogger who means well but doesn't post enough, etc. So, let's just get that out of the way. Sorry I haven't been posting as diligently as I once did. But, well, rainbows are fussy and it turns out tornadoes love lemons. The chocolates? Well, they looked delicious - but I'm trying to maintain my girlish figure, so I thought I may as well learn to juggle. With chocolate. It's been interesting trying to figure out how to balance it all.
Which brings me to today's lesson:
How does one obtain this? Some people just seem to inherently have it. Others never have it, but they're really good at juggling. Some people learn it eventually... Others just don't have it, don't get it, and never will. I'm not quite sure where I fall on this spectrum, but the last few months have been a lesson in this department - that is for certain.
As I've mentioned before, I don't have a dimmer. My switch is ON, or it's off...
|Kalamazoo State Theatre, Kalamazoo, MI. My home away from home.|
I've been trying really hard to install my own dimmer, but apparently it required a couple of meetings, some brainstorming sessions, a cost-analysis, some compromise, and then some difficult rewiring to install this stinking dimmer. Actually, I'd prefer to not think of it as a dimmer, but more of a... balancer-thingamadoojob. Yes, that's much better.
|Nearly 90-year-old light control panel. The|
switches next to the tape marked "on" actually
turn on stars and clouds on the theatre ceiling.
So many interesting, and thankfully, good things are happening. I've been reminded recently by a few of you outstanding people who I've gotten to know through this blog that, sometimes, it is good and it is necessary to pause, reflect, see how far you've come, and appreciate where you're at.
I'm in the mood to turn the lights on full blast again. Brighten it up a bit. But, I suppose adjusting my balancer-thingmadoojob to let life happen every now & then won't kill me. I may not be as full bore at all times as I have been, but I'm certainly enjoying the glow.