Friday, May 18, 2012
Restart - Take 2
I just got hit by a rogue shell.
Fire power gone...
No worries! There's a box with a question mark.
It better not be a coin... I need a "big." Right. Now.
Okay... I can be little Mario and try to finish the level, orrrrrr...
Annnnnd I'm dead.
If only starting over were as simple as smacking a button on the top of my brother's Super Nintendo system... So many times I'd get to a point where I'd try the same level over and over, and in a fit of frustration, "SMACK!!!!!" Reset. Do over. Restart. "Stupid moving pipey things with fireballs coming at me and a wizard that just keeps appearing... OVER IT."
I said I'd start over in my last blog. I did, for a couple days. Then blew it... Then I did again for a couple of days! And then I blew it for a few days... I'm not sure what my problem is, but I am all out of sorts lately! It seems like every few months, I've got to sit down and hash out a game plan. Get organized. Get back on a schedule. Plan out my eating. Clean my abyss of a bedroom. Oh, Lordy - here we go...
Pre-planning my food again as usual. As I mentioned before, a key to my progress has been making sure that I have good food available to me, things that are quick and easy to grab, and often planning out what I'm going to eat for the whole day either that morning, or the night before. I haven't been buying groceries as thoughtfully as I used to. I've got to be honest with myself. For whatever reason lately, I've had a very difficult time sticking to my guns and I have to make sure there is nothing in my cupboard that will allow me to splurge thoughtlessly. Usually, I've got it down. I've got control. I don't have as much control lately, and I've got to keep things away from me that will tempt me to do the wrong thing. It's about to get real.
The bedroom! They say messy house messy mind, yeah? This is true. I'm a bit of a discombobulated thingamabob right now trying to sort out quite a few aspects of life. When I get frazzled, I let my room get uber-frazzled. It is time for a top-to-bottom clean of my room, and a purging of the wardrobe. Anything that doesn't fit must go. What will I do with all of those clothes? I will have a garage sale at my parents' - date TBD. I've got a lot of great stuff in very gently/never used condition. I'll keep you all posted.
I love flying by the seat of my pants. But, I've got to have structure. I need to get to bed earlier, get up early and work out, and make the most of my day. Structure may seem restrictive, but oh no, no, no, it is not. Structure allows you to get done what must be done in a timely fashion so you can do more with the time you have left over. I spend too much time trying to figure out what I'm going to do and how, easily distracted by - well, I'm easily distracted period, and end up spending too much time on random minutiae instead of just getting to it. I'm a list-maker extraordinaire. I will tackle lists like nobody's business, but if it doesn't make the list... Bad news, bears. I've got to give myself guidelines, timelines, lists, and things of the like or else it all goes to pot. I'm better at this at work than I am with my personal responsibilities, and this is a change of the most critically imperative nature.
Now, if only I had a Yoshi I could ride around - everything would be sorted. How? I don't know, but I've always wanted to ride a dinosaur with a shell on its back that can reach things from long distances with its tongue. Haven't you?!